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crashcoursewomb

Published: Aug 2, 2009

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Literature Text

_{we are not lovers
because i am a liar.

we are not lovers
because your heart is the solute.
and i am the solvent.

-

ikeepsaying,
if he wanted me then,
what happened to now.

and he's different.

theychangetooquick.
they change.

did i?

-

i decided the boy who
woke up and clubbed till
he can't remember
who followed me to school
to tell me i was beautiful

wins

everything.

but i am sorry
for the false number
and the numerous lies

well they never fell from my lips
they never fell from mine
but they still made it to
yours

-

i can imagine us all
over again

-

you know
i think it has something
to do with the fact
that i just find comfort in
your arms.}

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