you crashed my car

he has an accent
he also has eyes
and

it's so

so


annoying how his eyelashes are longer
than mine. but it's replaceable and
there is always mascara.

he looks unreal in the sunlight. he is faker
than my current manicure, even more
than my best friends hair.

he coughs to indicate attention. he coughs,
when he inhales too much.
he has these lime tanslucent eyes.
those fucking eyes.
and



and he goes on and
on about how
much he smoked
last night


and how
and how
and how


he was going to kill himself
but he was all too drunk to remember
to remember his brother screaming
screaming so
so


he doesn't care and he laughs.
no, not like me at all.
i have you
i couldn't do that to you.


i often sit cross legged opposite him
with his rough hands in between mine.
and today. yesterday. someday.
i say. i say
i am going to miss this.



i walk away.


i will walk away.